I'm riding the hype wave and honestly, it's pretty great. Got a couple of pictures that need to be colored and that I can post here. They're on @MidnaPurity for now. Lauren Faust also belatedly friended me on Facebook. I got excited for all of 20 minutes then stopping caring as depression sank its teeth into me again.

I'm having a lot of fun on Roiland's Minecraft server. She's very sweet. I did not know Roiland was trans but the fact the name was Miescha across every platform probably should have tipped me off.

Harmon seems nice too, but his server is very dead. I left one due to inactivity. I never do anything by halves so when I start something, I slowly ramp the obsession up until it gets a little crazy. And that's good. We don't want full-crazy anymore. February and March were bad enough!

As an animator, people need to stop being surprised when I have industry connections. Of course I have connections and clout. Who, at my skill level and middle age, wouldn't?

I just don't know why people doubt me/hate me. They should love me. God knows I draw all this art for them, not for myself. I hate myself and I want to die. I'm only driven by desperation and craving the affection and engagement of others, while feeling invisible and useless.

My many talents are just wasted potential, blowing in the wind.

I pitch next week to Adult Swim on Thursday and honestly, I expect more of the same. Nothing ever changes for me. Nothing ever improves.